- Baby keeps getting lower and lower. And bigger and bigger. Which really I am okay with. I don't feel as big as I look, thankfully.
- We finished our birth classes. The last part of class was taking a tour of the hospital. It was a pretty crazy feeling standing in the room thinking that in only a few short weeks or maybe days we will be back in there but we will be back there because I will be in labor...not just there to take a tour.
- I had my first pregnancy breakdown. I called Doug because I could not get the fire started. He came home to help and found me in the floor weeping, staring into our wood stove. It is hard to start a fire when the wood is not seasoned very well. But really I was crying because I just want to hold our baby and we don't know when that will be. Thankfully we don't have to know and really we are okay with waiting until the baby is ready. It is not my decision to make. Doug hugged me, made me breakfast, and reassured me that everything is going to be okay. And thankfully, I am fully aware that my feelings and emotions are a little overloaded at the moment.
- My sister had her baby boy...so now our sweet little one has two newborn friends to meet once he/she makes the grand entrance. Baby Devan and Baby Libby.
- Anytime we are a few minutes late people assume that we are having our baby.
- We had to ask our doctor some silly questions, but since it is our first time at this whole thing we really had no idea. He was great and did not make us feel silly for asking "So who do we actually call once we are in labor?" and "What exactly is that phone number?" and "Where do we go to check-in?"
1. Talked about marriage with a couple that is getting married this weekend. They needed to interview a couple that has been married 3-5 years for their pre-marital counseling so we met in a coffee shop and talked about our marriage. It might have been one of my most favorite conversations we have ever had. I loved hearing Doug's insights and perspectives on our marriage. I walked out of the coffee shop even more in love with my husband.
2. Watched some football at our neighbors house.
3. Baked some banana bread and muffins. I had my little dog helper at my feet the whole time. Soon it will be my little child helper at my feet.
4. Went to Lowe's and bought a new water filter, a diaper pail, and hand soap.
5. One of Doug's friend from high school came over with her family for a visit. We walked around camp and looked at all the nature and then visited in our home.
6. We played Sequence with dear friends Justin and Cheryl. The girls won [no matter what the boys might tell you] and we might have inhaled two bags of microwave popcorn.
7. Enjoyed another Braum's chocolate milkshake
8. Worked a very busy weekend with lots of people wanting to eat lots of food.
Last night we had a fun Fall evening with the families here at camp. We enjoyed a hayride, roasting hot dogs, eating smores, laughing at the cute kids, and talking with so many wonderful people. We are constantly reminded of how blessed and fortunate we are to be a part of a ministry that cares so deeply for each other and family.
p.s. Thanks to Justin for the sweet photos. You are the best!
We have not finished the nursery, so here is just a small peek. We are waiting for the little one to get here before we finish. We will add some gender specific things once we know if we have a little boy or a little girl. The pictures above the crib are silhouettes of my mom and uncle. I found the letters above the changing table at a flea market two or three years ago. When I bought them, I knew I wanted to use them in our future nursery. The ABC print on the top shelf is from a book that belonged to my great-grandmother. The owl was a homemade baby gift from a special family friend and Mickey Mouse gets a special place on the shelf. He was the only souvenir we brought home from our trip to Disneyland this summer.
- We are going to the doctor every week now. Our doctor is super laid back and is great at avoiding unnecessary exams and procedures. We love having a doctor that we trust and is so good to just let the baby call the shots and decide when it is time to come. At the last appointment he told us that the baby has caught up in size. Way to go, babe!
- We were about 10 minutes late to our childbirth class this week...someone told us later that they thought that maybe we were in labor.
- I could have this baby any moment now. Or in 3 three weeks. It is a little difficult making plans.
- I finally packed some stuff for the hospital. I kept putting it off just because I don't want to add to the mental anticipation that it could happen any moment when really statistically we still have several weeks to go.
- I am getting a little tired of total strangers telling me that I am about to pop and telling me that they just know that it is a boy or that there is no way it is not a girl. So far, that has been the worst part of not knowing if we are having a boy or a girl.
- I think my body is finally getting a little tired of carrying around 30 extra pounds. My hips and back sure do ache at night.
- The other night I sat on the floor and read from one of my childbirth books to Doug. We are getting prepped and ready for game time. We are going to make a great team.
I recently organized all the pictures on our computer (nesting, maybe?). I came across this picture and it made me so happy. You see, when Doug and I went to Disneyland this summer I really wanted a picture of the two of us in front of the castle. Trying to get a couple picture in a busy place can be rather awkward. We tried several times throughout the day to find the perfect time and the perfect opportunity to ask someone to take the picture for us. I had given up and decided that this memory would just have to live in our minds. But then Doug surprised me and walked right up to a stranger that was passing by and asked her to take our picture. He made my dream come true and now we have this picture to document that memory. It might seem small to you, but it was so significant to me.
- We are 37 weeks today. Which in the medical world means that we are full term and babies come "any day now". In the Castle family world, we realize that really this does not mean a whole lot and that baby will come when baby is ready. It is a relief to know that if baby does come soon the lungs and heart and brain and all the vital organs have been given enough time to grow and develop.
- Made it through another childbirth class. We did not laugh quite as hard this time, but still had lots of fun moments. We learned more breathing, massage techniques, and different laboring positions.
- The massage Doug gave me this week made me feel so special and loved. And it was just what my body needed.
- A few people have told me they think the baby has dropped. I think they might be right. Many times throughout the day I feel like my hips are about to break. When I tell Doug this he responds with "Hips don't lie".
- Now when people ask when I am due I only have to say the day instead of the month and the day. We are in our birth month!
- The other night the baby kicked so hard it rocked our whole bed. Doug turned and asked me what had happened and I let him know that it was his sweet child just kicking me that hard.
- I have been eating lots of cereal and grilled cheese sandwiches.
- I am still so overwhelmed and thankful that I still feel great. Thank you Lord!